The lawn in the garden at Versailles. Our last full day in Paris.
Me acting a fool in front of the Louve
John was VERY excited to see the Colosseum!!! We both were... it was one of those things we dreamed about seing. And there it was in front of us. Breathtaking moment for us both.
John taking a picture of me in Rome. xoxo
John's photo of Amelia when we came to visit her for football season.
John took a shot of the Waldorf Christmas decorations and sent them to me. He didn't like the garland on top. He thought it was tacky. He wanted my opinion.
John took this while driving... pushing the cadillac to 90... big boy. P.S. THIS IS DANGEROUS.
JOHN LOVED SUNSETS. THERE ARE MANY, MANY pictures of them on his phone. And I think of him everytime I see a sunset. I admired this part about him. That he loved sunsets. It was something sweet and sensitive and not something everyone knew about him. He was so romantic.
John's favorite pup in the world. Metallica.
One of my favorite pictures John captured. This is a CLASSIC picture of my dad. And this was his picture ID whenever he called. Made us laugh everytime.
John's favorite kitty cat. Cecilia. A.K.A. "Mr. Whiskers"
John taking a picture of me before we go out. This was in our old apartment.
Anyway... there are many more. Most of our Europe trip. He used his phone to take a lot of photos there even though I had my own camera and took plenty for the both of us. John knew my obsession with photos. A few weeks before he died I told him how I was going to buy myself a Nikon. I told him it would be an engagement gift to mysef. I was just planning on using some of my savings or putting it on credit. I wanted a Nikon. I wanted to capture our lives in a more professional quality... and engagement gave me the PERFECT excuse to finally take the plunge to do it. I was at first going to wait to have a baby... and then get one. But, I couldn't. In the end I didn't get a Nikon. John died. I have lost interest in taking photos. As much as I want to.. it's hard to take photos because I am aware I am making new memories without John. I feel guilty. I feel like he deserves to be here with me... in every photo I take. reluctantly of course. Making a silly face, of course. That was what he did. And I didn't care. So, for now my camera sits next to my computer. It's charged. Not used. I took a few photos when I was in NC seeing my nieces. I even uploaded our final photos from NY to my facebook account. That was a big step for me. but i wanted to share the memories with family and friends. i wanted people to see in the last weeks of John's life... he was COMPLETELY happy. he was happier than ever. WE were happier than ever. We were living out our dreams.