Since John died I have been taking prescription medications.
I take anti anxiety medication when needed. (which is actually pretty frequent)
I take sleeping meds when needed (Lunesta)
and I also take an anti-depressant called Paxil. I take 40mg.
A friend of mine recently convinced me that I no longer need to take Paxil. And without really thinking it through I tried and quit cold turkey. Today has been about 5 days since.... and all of a sudden today was really weird. I woke up crying and I felt extremely tired all day. By the end of the day I had nausea and dizziness and my heart was racing. At one point I felt like I was going to pass out.
What I was experiencing was the first steps of withdrawl from medication.
Something I havent always quite believed it.
I really thought that anyone could stop medications cold turkey and move on with their lives. This is NOT the case with Paxil. Then I did my homework...
and Paxil is some scary shit.
Exhibit article A:
Exhibit B: http://www.quitpaxil.org/Main/symptoms.htm
Apparently this is serious.
And something I don't think I should be doing right now on my own and this fast. When I came home I felt like I was dying.
I gave in to the Paxil. Moments later I was fine and back to normal. My body really does rely on it. Which I hate. My body needs a drug in order for it to function properly. I totally regret ever getting started on this. I am going to ask my doc to help me ween off the Paxil. I am keeping the anti anxiety medication probably for the rest of my life. And it never hurts to have the sleeping medication around. but I am done with this Paxil nightmare.