I know, how could I? I just had a good thing happen. Kelley has moved in and I can finally ease up on my finances. And also have company when times get lonely. I love it already. Today I came home to cooked pizza... and she also bought hummus and watermelon. HOLY CRAP. Two of my favorite foods!!
but. as far as just my life in general... im sort of stuck.
i am getting antsy.
I have a big travel bug.
it's actually a problem.
i have to get away. often. and far.
i need that time.
i like to explore. i love adventure. i like seeing different places. touching history. mingling with the locals and learning culture.
i want to go. i want to go now.
work is starting to pick up. MPA is next month and the musical rehearsals have begun. the pressure and stress has set in.
spring break is far away. and this may be a good thing because i dont have anything planned. if i go into spring break without any plans i will be very depressed. the last thing i want to do is just stay here for a week sitting on the couch and watching multiple episodes of "Ghost Whisperer." ha.
(sadly this is what i have been doing lately)
there are so many places i would like to go visit. it just feels odd if i visit them alone.
it's like i feel guilt for john not getting to experience these trips with me. if i ever take another one.
i guess this is when i say how thankful i am for the trip to europe we had two summers ago! what perfect timing in our lives and what memories we created. i dont think i will ever have an opportunity like that again.
with the way my life is turning out financially.... i can go ahead and wave it goodbye.
and i dont know if i would be able to handle it alone.