Wednesday, February 16, 2011

something happened....

i didn't expect this. at all.
it wasn't planned.
it caught me off guard.
And, it's ok. because i like it.
the fact that it happened two days before valentine's day.... the fact that it has a pretty unique story behind it... makes it even better.
i am dating.
yes, i have a boyfriend.
it's allowed. there are no rules in the widow rule book. or in the life rule book. or in the relationship rule book.
i looked them up. And i found nothing on this sort of thing.
what i did look into was myself and the feelings in my heart. and the fact that I am very happy with this person.
i know that everyone has always told me they just want me to be happy.
here's me going for it.
i am going for happiness.
because of all people.... i deserve that.
perhaps you don't agree? sorry.
this does not mean John is out of the picture. he never will be. he's still here.
he's still part of the picture.
it's just i am opening my heart to something new. i have saved room for a new relationship. a new chance.
and it scares the shit out of me at the same time.

here we go.....

7 comments:

MandyMy said...

Good luck!! I wish you all the best!! :)

Brooke Simmons said...

Yay for you! keeps us posted on how things are going...hope he brings fulfillment.

Emma said...

I am so excited for you and don't let anyone tell you when it is or isn't okay, trust your heart! I know John would want you to be happy and as long as you hold your standards high and find someone to treat you well he will be so excited for you too! All the best, good luck and keep us posted on this newest part of your journey! Hugs, Em

Kristen said...

Good. For. You.

KFP

Ginger said...

I am so happy for you!

Paul and Heather said...

Good luck honey! I wish you nothing but the best. If this brings you peace and happiness then what the hell could be wrong with it. Big hugs from Philly!

The Boggs' said...

I'm so happy for you! You deserve this more than anyone.